I feel the need to just... Type something about this. Tell it to nobody. I don't even know.
I've always had a problem with anxiety, and I've had (minor) panic attacks for as long as I can remember. Recently my mental health has apparently started to decline. I've had the most awful panic attacks, so much so that I've gotten a.. I don't even know the word in English; "sykemelding". It's a kind of sick leave, and it means my doctor has pronounced me unfit to work, or in my case go to school, due to my massive panic attacks.
I've been at home for something like a week and a half/two weeks.
And today my doctor told me that I have panic disorder and depression. I've gotten emergency calming meds for when I lose control, and I'll be starting my treatment this week.
Wish me luck.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
My opinion
Art is in the eye of the beholder, and that view is one I am always prepared to defend.
Who is to define what is art and what is not? Roger Ebert recently posted a journal entitled "Videogames can never be art". I won't go on too long about this, but I disagree. Are the people who designed, drew and envisioned these magnificent creations not artists? Many games these days have beautifully put together cut scenes which require as much artistic vision as any movie.
Video games, though full of rules, objectives and such, appeal visually and spiritually to me. Most people who love games don't just play them to win - we play them for the experience, and in my opinion, a video game can be experienced in the same way as, say, a novel.
Now this is, as all things, a matter of taste, and though perhaps they cannot rival the art of great poets, writers and painters video games are still art to me.
PS: If tying a dog to a rope and starving it can be considered to be art by some, then why video games never can be art is beyond me.
http://www.itchmo.com/costa-rican-artist-under-fire-for-starving-dog-as-part-of-art-exhibit-3485
Who is to define what is art and what is not? Roger Ebert recently posted a journal entitled "Videogames can never be art". I won't go on too long about this, but I disagree. Are the people who designed, drew and envisioned these magnificent creations not artists? Many games these days have beautifully put together cut scenes which require as much artistic vision as any movie.
Video games, though full of rules, objectives and such, appeal visually and spiritually to me. Most people who love games don't just play them to win - we play them for the experience, and in my opinion, a video game can be experienced in the same way as, say, a novel.
Now this is, as all things, a matter of taste, and though perhaps they cannot rival the art of great poets, writers and painters video games are still art to me.
PS: If tying a dog to a rope and starving it can be considered to be art by some, then why video games never can be art is beyond me.
http://www.itchmo.com/costa-rican-artist-under-fire-for-starving-dog-as-part-of-art-exhibit-3485
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Assignments < Everything else
Helpful illustration of my current state of mind:
I can't even BEGIN to tell you how much I hate doing assignments. I like to be my own boss, thank you very much.
Well, to be fair, there are times when I think doing assigned work is fun, but only if I find it interesting. Like doing an assignment on dentistry; no thank you. An assignment where I can draw something easy and get good grades; yes please. Good god, I sound like the laziest person to walk the face of the Earth.
Me just having bought the Orange Box doesn't help much either (I'm a slowpoke, I know). I love Portal, so I just had to play through it again, and Half-Life 2 was fun, surprisingly enough, given how much of a scaredy-cat I am when it comes to horror-games. Also Team Fortress 2. GOOD GOD, this game. I swear, yesterday I played it for 6 hours straight. My play time all together is about 12 hours, and I got it Saturday. If you add that to the equation you get:
TF2 (12 hours) + one playthrough of Portal (3,7 hours) + Half-Life 2 (4,5 hours) = NO LIFE.
That's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, I like it.
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Well, to be fair, there are times when I think doing assigned work is fun, but only if I find it interesting. Like doing an assignment on dentistry; no thank you. An assignment where I can draw something easy and get good grades; yes please. Good god, I sound like the laziest person to walk the face of the Earth.
Me just having bought the Orange Box doesn't help much either (I'm a slowpoke, I know). I love Portal, so I just had to play through it again, and Half-Life 2 was fun, surprisingly enough, given how much of a scaredy-cat I am when it comes to horror-games. Also Team Fortress 2. GOOD GOD, this game. I swear, yesterday I played it for 6 hours straight. My play time all together is about 12 hours, and I got it Saturday. If you add that to the equation you get:
TF2 (12 hours) + one playthrough of Portal (3,7 hours) + Half-Life 2 (4,5 hours) = NO LIFE.
That's the way, uh-huh, uh-huh, I like it.
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Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Hello, world!
Welcome to the English version of my main blog! If I have anything significant to say on the other one I will probably translate it and put it on here. I'll most likely update this one more often anyway.
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